Do you sometimes have so much to give yet you are afraid to give in?
Or perharps you just enjoy the solitary life even though you are surrounded by bees?
This is me and on both counts am guilty as charged! Don’t get me wrong am hyperactive, fun and easy going, and ofcourse, i sure know how to rock a party.
Not to mention that I love to have fun and I have many friends but I would rather stay by myself… I find my self in the midst of crowd all the time but am still apart from the crowd.
I prefer smaller crowd once the party is more than 5 or 6 it’s becomes a matter of showing up and keeping up appearances.
I don’t like talking much, I rather sit and write the words will flow free cause unhindered but to talk in mid sentence I would struggle for words, except I would have to begin to talk very fast in which case I can keep up.
Once, my professor called me beauty with no brains because I lost my voice trying to present my thesis in front of the class but I knew that work inside out, that day I cried a river.
Within the surface is a cool exterior that every one knows, the ever smiling calculative Adaku but within am a rock and roll.. thinking a 1000 thoughts and having the energy to cordinate many things at once.
So this is why, I would rather love to play the king maker in the background giving support and direction to make things work, and letting others be the figure face.
I would rather have the safe abode of darkness where I can hide and craft my thoughts than the brilliant lights.
But as if in conspiracy always the brightest lights would find me…
Once someone said I was a rarity.
Talking is my wolf, I would be so afraid to utter words even though I have a full script loaded in my head…
Am a strong visionary, within seconds I can strategize and work fast to implement… but this isn’t enough cause nature will always conspire with humans and make me a spokesperson putting me on the spot, me on pedestals…
Am everything good but so afraid to stand and talk…
Thus, I have decided to confront my biggest fear, outsmarting the wolves.
A career in media is me taking on the wolves, here is me having the courage to face my fears… Here is me a television presenter… now I must talk or I would be relegated to oblivion.. and that I would never allow… talking here I come…
What are the wolves living within you, can you have the courage and dine with them?